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|Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 5:38 pm Post subject:
|Rayzorblades wrote: |
|Well the Ex and I went out and had dinner. Great time catching up, then on the way home she tells me about sleeping with her old F-Buddy last week, it tore my guts out. We had some weird discussion, said goodbye, and then had some dramatic arguing over text.
I felt like all our years and life together was worth nothing if she could just be over it in less than 2 months and jump in bed with someone else she said was just a rebound.
I just spent like a half hour meditating on it and getting my head together. I'm still hurting like heck, but I'm a lot better from the meditation.
Hey Razor, what's up man? You might want to persuade Jobet to energetically transmit some of your handsomeness to a friend of mine sitting here next to me at the lab. He looks like a constipated Sicilian and...
... he's just got done choking my neck (the one over my shoulder).
Alright enough. Back to your story. I read it, and I paid rapt attention.
Two things came to my mind, but I will meditate on your story. I will share more as they come to mind.
Mate, the difficulties you are going through right now are sign posts you (and everyone else) slams into "by accident" (At least where the ego is concerned; ala "this wasn't meant to happen! I wish it were different") every now and then.
What most people do is keep on going after picking themselves up and dusting off, only to slam into another one and hurting in the same way. I think your task as an aspiring mage (or else what on Earth are you doing on this forum? haha) is to stop at the signs you slam into, look up, and see where they are pointing you at.
Face the feelings coursing through you right now, by all means, but allow yourself to look BEYOND the pining you feel for your ex-wife... BEYOND the hurt over the divorce... BEYOND the gut-wrench you feel from your ex-wife talking to you about the sex she had with an ex-FB... BEYOND the feelings of betrayal that springs up within...
The REALITY behind these illusions is that these are all sign-posts put there by your Higher Self, trying to point you in a certain direction beyond the "life" your ego had set out for you to travel to acquire things it thinks it will be satisfied by (which will NEVER happen even after you do acquire them).
How you do that is by just being present with them. ACCEPT them. Surrender to the Yin Qi of the Universe that manifests in the form of these upsets in life that you have no control over; these (temporary) absenses of Yang Qi. (Or, as the case maybe, these upsets and imbalances of too much/too little Yang Qi that can only be brought back to balance with more Yin *wink*)
I promise you that, in time, as you allow these to safely course through your body without resistence, in total loving surrender, all these experiences will only serve to widen your capacity for greater possibilities. They will enrich your character - they will give you a history, a "life story", an edge to your personality, and in turn, enable you to enrich others whom you come into contact with... INCLUDING... your ex-wife.
Any anger you feel, bring it down to the "Capacitor" (dantien) during meditation. It will only add to your power - and in turn - the power you will have over your circumstances.
Life is too long to let short schemes bug you down too much, bro You have a long path, and a lot of work ahead of you. Believe me, I'd much rather THAT than "playing it safe". That's for wimps, and you don't come across as one. Heck, you're a semi-PUA for God's sakes!