Christopher Windus
Christopher Windus

Amidst the confusion, miscommunication, and heartbreak, I wouldn’t deny that what we’d was irreplaceable. Whatever we had, although we never actually labeled it, we had a great run.

The laughter spent on my bed just before we fell asleep, the drunken nights when I’d take you home free of purpose in head, or the times our quiet brought us nothing but relaxation wouldn’t be erased from my recollection. I couldn’t promise you that no guy can top you, but one matter’s for sure; you’ll constantly be their largest competitors in my life.

I’ve been told that it’s incorrect to make someone your standard – the man everyone has to measure up to. Perhaps it’s even more difficult that I put you on a pedestal when I never had the right to.

I’ll never understand if that was the reason you needed to leave, because you felt like I was anticipating something you may never give but I would like you to be aware of, I never anticipated anything grand or excessive from you. I put you there because I understood afterward that you were it for me. This goes without saying that you made me believe in something I’ve lost beliefs in. You were my silver lining. !

But as our space grows larger and our hearts further apart, I presume it’s best for me to let you go.

In an issue of weeks, I’m allowing you to go. Begin over, start fresh, begin my life without you. I should’ve done this months ago, but why begin in the middle when every year, you’re allowed a time to begin with a clean slate. I was never a believer of change, but after you, I learned it is possible because that’s just what you did to me. !

They said that sometimes the kindest thing to do is let folks go. And yes, in a couple of weeks, when the clock strikes 12 on January 1, 2017, I’m allowing you to go.

But since it’s still 2016, I would like to simply say this: I trust you alter my mind. TC mark

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I’m Ultimately Letting You Go In 2017